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1. Don't forgive so easily. DOnt be a coward about it and just forget people.
2. Don't always follow what people say. if you have a problem with something, don't be so easily persuaded.
3. Smile
4. Keep moving forward.
5. Make peace
6. if you cant make peace GET FUCKING READY TO FIGHT!!
7. Always back up your friends even if it meens fighting another friend.
8. If you want to be my friend, read advice numbers 1 to 7.
I'm actually losing it.
Why do i always get stuck with bullshit?
the same old trash that no one wants
the used and the broken
they flock to me
they mock to me
the kind of people the hero's rejected on their trip
the ones who never made the team
the ones who will try to make you slip
lets just say if I grew crop they wouldn't be the cream.
cant you see that I am a pionner
I want to be facing danger!
not one of the endless talkers
I'll never say the same old things you've heard before.
cant you see that I am a pioneer
unlocking the greatest mysteries
my blade is a heart that now is pure and strong
cant you see that I am a pioneer
not one of the endless talkers
who'll tell you the same old rules you've heard before
and everything costs money......we have no money.....what a sad life it is to be broken and poor. forced to be kept in the dark in the rain in the cold in the blistering heat in the wind in the chill. watching the world go by like it normally should. like what every one else is doing.
Driving down the road watching all the open doors and all the shiney lights
enter here games here food here sales sales sales new movie video game release.
SO many places I want to go so many places that i should know
but the door is openand yet i can never get in
because i am broken and poor
not like i wasn't before
but not like this
no no this can't be right.
I live an honest life
some times you try and try but dont get by
noooooooohooohooohohohooohoh
Oh please. Don't go. I want you to stay with me
if i didn't I wouldnt have written this.
oh please
I have nothing but what I've made
and family can't help me.
I can't burden them with my shit.
People must be really really buisy. Well, by the time you see this, fill me in on whats been goin on.
I feel like this is gonna be one of those sites that might die out for us if we dont use it enough.
In any case, I've been writing in my journal. The truth. the way. the facts. and the perspective behind it all.
Strange lack of feeling creeping inside. i'll fight back the darkness.
don't hold me back.
Now I forget what I was going to talk about.
Because the point is.
We cant waste our time dwelling on the sorrows of our past.
It takes a fire to keep us warm.
And that fire can only come from the light. The light within all of us. It's that sign and that voice insde that tells us its gonna be ok and that even though everything seems grim it tells us we can some how get by. Its the one thing that lets all the good memories come back when you cant seem to remember the last time you smiled. and you realise. you've actually smiled ALOT! ^__^
Now I know alot of you kids and people off in college wont appreciate these words, but I know I'm right. And you won't realise this until your older and wish you could go back. Hell, I know I already do. I'm writing this, to give you an idea. and some hope. Something to keep in the back of your mind, so that later on down the road you might rememebr it and take the avice that was given to you so long ago but still so fresh in your mind. We need to live our lives and treat everyone with kindness like there will be no tomorrow. We can't alwasy act like people know how we are feeling. We cant always feel worthless. We can't alwasy feel left out and afraid. We need to reach out to people and talk to peopel you might never have even take the time to glance at because we are so buisy or judgmental about the other person's reputation and style. Talk to people and engage in their lives. For they are your fellow man and woman. Our flesh and blood. What good is a family that doesnt communicate?
Family, that's something else we fucked up along the way.
The system is screwed up.
When I say the system, I meen of course every system. THE System.
Life.
And the systems within it.
We screwed ourselves over with systems that dont work.
Like our judicial system
and our health care system
and the way we live our lives
and the way we treat other people.
Then there are the systems of work.
Every time you try to get a job they try to throw you in hours you will never want to do.
I once whent to a Khols to work and they said they would expect me to show up on saturdays from 6am to closing. Yeah. WHAT AM I? A refugee? An illegal immigrant!? I can't work that much! So, I said sure, I'll show up to the interview, but I never did.
Freelance writing. WTF. Who the fuck wants to do some shit for FREE! because it makes you feel good inside? Because it will give you benefits in thye future? Fuck that! You should be able to get all that PLUS some cold hard cash and I meen now! I want my money! I want food! Clothes! I want to be able to establish myself economically! If people don't have jobs they can't have money and without money the economic machien can't turn and if it can't turn......THEN THERE IS A FUCKING DEPRESSION!
Say it with me people. Shout out for my cause and hear my plea.
This system is screwed up, and its the one we naturally gave ourselves.
Also, fat, who the fuck invented fat? Honestly, Sorry, but when I'm cold the excess fat I have doesnt make me any more warm during the winter. Nor does it give me energy i can use later on like a bear!!!!
FAT!? ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS!? It just hangs there and doesn't do shit! You would think the energy we store in ourselves from food would just go away or turn into something more usefull like brain cells or MUSCLE! But no, it turned into a jelatonous peice of junk that just hangs around!
And allergies. Honestly, come on. Thanks alot Life. NOT. I didn't choose to sneeze when beautiful flowers bloom. WHy is it? Huh? The pollen isnt gonna do shit! STop making mucous come down my nose! Pollen is not nature's anthrax! OR MAYBE IT IS! That's why it causes allergies it says "Fuck you human life! You fucked us over now we're fuckin you!"
Sheesh! What a dumb system we have. When your nose gets stuffy your eyes water and your mouth feels dry. Why are the eyes nose and throat and ears connected huh? honestly, it doesnt do anything but complicate things.
Life is chaos. It is a screwed up system, but we can make it work for ourselves if we fix things up.
everybody's getting down with the sickness
And the sickness is stupidity
And the sickness is wrath
And the sickness is greed
And the sickness is apathy
And I have the remedy
Wanna play russian roulette?
I've been contemplating to myself on what I've done in the past and what i want to do in the future.
Evaluating whether I've been doing the right things or the wrong things.
However, everytime I lose hope in myself, the light calls me back to continue my path of benediction. I've forgivven myself for what I've done and I've GOTTEN OVER IT. Point is, I know my path and will continue to stick to it.
To find my hero's welcome right where I belong.
My Holy Grail
In any case, I've been looking for a job all over. Wish me good luck.
" thats Life" < -- Frank Sinatra.
When I was a child I read an old Indiana jones book and i used to obsess over Indiana Jones movies. It's good to see my childhood come back to me in a time when i need my childhood the most. maybe I can read the clues I left behind unintentionally in order to lead a better life. I know it lies there somewhere. The truth. The Center of the universe. Buried in the past.
First year of College is over.
I feel inspiration comming over me to write. maybe I will. But when I do, I won't post it up here where mongrels will try to steal my work. I'll save it on paper and typed text for my friends to read with me. It has happened. Another year washed away and I feel so un- acomplished. Like I'm still stuck at the starting line. What the hell? Well, maybe that's not completely true. I did learn a couple of things that may help me in this game. More about me and how to be more like me and how I can accomplish my goals. Where does this all go? Time. Time is calculations. So I can't ask time. And I don't know if the gods can understand what I'm writing on the internet. What I do know, are my questions and my goal. My dream. However, although I can't ask Time, I can ask those who made the current. The passing. Life. And maybe even Humanity. Together. Can we answer the questions? You will never know, because I won't write it here. I'll write it in another journal. However, face to face, I can show you the world. And you can show me yours.
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touched
